by Colonel Philip Jordan (AKA Steve Schmierer)
[Certain figures and info. reflect the date this document was written.]
MY REASON FOR WRITING THIS brief summary on the life of MS (my ex-wife
and our chief persecutor for over 16 [now 24!] years), is to show you fellow Christians that
to sue at the law your fellow believers for alleged mistreatment is wrong! In
reality she received correction from the hand of God! She has tried to throw this
correction off and has turned around to only hate her brothers and sisters in
Christ for this long of a time. Since 1987, she has been at variance and in strife.
She has tried to stop us and our work of God, possessed with revenge and too
proud to admit she was wrong. By now she must have a mountain of bitterness
towards God and God’s people. What did it all accomplish? Nothing for her
except to receive her dirty unearned money. For us, it has made us all the
stronger to go forward for souls and believe our God against all odds. She
thought she was on the winning side but really, in eternity, she is the loser. No
wonder, she is so very sick inwardly. To have to die in this condition and face
God is most tragic.
She lives separated from God by her own doings. She wouldn’t face God
and face her own sins. Tell me, is it that hard to admit you’re wrong? Is it that
tough to admit and confess you went too far, unless, of course, you love a lie!
The one and foremost requirement for continuing on in God is TO REPENT, and
this is the one thing she has not done. She is locked into a stubborn willfulness
against the precepts of the Bible. We all must bow down sometimes, humble
ourselves to be able to go forward, otherwise if you don’t you stagnate and die
on the vine.
It’s a sin to hate your brother, to continually slander your sister, to hide
from your own personal faults and failures. She has been a shame to the very
name of Christ. He died for us that we in turn would lay down our lives for
The only way out for her and her great blunder is to confess and repent
of all the miss-doings and stop the evil surmisings, and come out of the
sexual corruptedness and fantasies. MAKE IT RIGHT WITH GOD OR BE
SEALED FOREVER! How dare she drag God’s people thru some secular
sinning court where the sinner judges the saint!
The crux of the Christian life is this: be ready to repent and be ready to
change. This is why she has made us here at ACMTC her life-long enemy. She
has made no change and done no repentance. She has to prove she is right
and we are wrong. There is something deadly wrong about being always right.
I Corinthians 6 verse 7 says, “Why do you not rather take wrong? Why do
you not rather suffer yourselves to be defrauded?” We followed this
instruction, she did not! Verse 8 says, “No, you do wrong and defraud, and
that your brethren.” She did do wrong! She tried her wicked best to defeat us
I would even go further to say that if she could sue God Himself, she
would. The court case would read as follows: “MS sues God for revealing her
sins”, with a sub-suit of “God Almighty sued for correcting His child”. This is the
reality of the whole affair. It’s ridiculous! Her sins against God’s
In her rebellion she has deceived many into believing we are the sinister
cult and she is the poor hurt lamb. Have you considered how many souls she
has hurt and kept in bondage by her lies? It’s all a cover-up for not letting God
deal with her own personal sins. From the beginning she lied about her situation
with me and others. The old axiom still stands: “Once you tell a lie, you
have to forever keep lying to cover for the very first one.” It is a never-ending
cycle of continually defending yourself. What a sickening life!
Now you tell me, is all this a Christian testimony or has she been derailed
off the Christian path and played into the adversary's hands? When you can’t
forgive and live, it’s because you won’t confess and repent. As you read this
story, keep in mind there are souls trapped behind all of this deception. But the
truth can and will set them free.
BACKGROUND HISTORY ON OUR LIVES
I FIRST MET MS when she was in the Bear Tribe. It was 1972. She had one
daughter, Iantha, age 3, and the father was unknown. She was living with
another man, one of the leaders—Greywolf; his real name being George K.
They lived down the road from where I lived in the Elk Grove, California vicinity.
They would all come over to visit and that is how I was introduced to that way of
loose living. They were really just a bunch of hippies trying to live in the country.
I fell for it to my own demise.
It didn’t take me long to figure out the sexual activities of the group. One
of MS’s main appetites was to take newcomers or people passing thru and make
a one night stand in bed or in the field or garden or wherever. Everyone was
ripe with fornication and adultery and it was passed off as all normal. So my first
impression of her was that she was easy and I passed getting involved. Then
there was a period of about 1 ½ years when we would see each other every now
and then until we got living close together again. This time she was with a
different partner, Rick C., as her previous lover had dumped her for someone
else. Out of this shack up came Sarah C., born in 1973. I lived communally with
them all until that winter and then I moved to Boonville, California, and they
moved to French Gulch, California. It was a year or more later that Rick C. and
MS had broken up and she had Iantha and Sarah and no father.
I was the next lover in line and by late 1974 I was living with her in French
Gulch at Greywolf's commune. Then Nathaniel was born out of wedlock in the
summer of 1975. So by 1975 she had three illegitimate children including mine.
I was highly unhappy with this lifestyle of fornication and all manner of filthiness
in the flesh. I became interested in the Christian religion at this time and tried
to make a hardy amending of my life. She went along with this because then
she had no choice, no one would have dared to marry her and she didn’t want
to be dropped again to be on another man hunt! So we were married in the
spring of 1976. The other children, Iantha and Sarah, became my stepchildren.
I tried to live a Christian life, but I really never felt the guilt of my sins roll
off my back. I know now it was in my own strength. In the course of two years
I was completely backslid morally and she was no different. I wanted God
desperately, but never expressed my feelings to her. She was very dull mentally
so I really never discussed my plans for the future with her. Marijuana was our
big idol. She still had wandering eyes for other men so I don’t know what went
on behind my back as many times I was away working while she was at home,
at a house we rented in French Gulch. Now this point is very important! This
cruel never-ending lust for the other sex, for different men, both young and old,
was to be her final downfall in the Christian ministry. When we are truly
converted we are expected to change all those tendencies. She did not!
So I bought some property outside of French Gulch with very little down
and with payments. It was going to be our dream, back to the land, but in reality
we both were too doped up to really expend that much energy. We moved there
and camped on the property. It was spring of 1980. I finally mustered up
enough energy to build a kitchen with a loft, a totally illegal building as far as the
building department was concerned. We lived in that and added on a larger
room by that winter, but it wasn’t all finished. It was primitive: NO
ELECTRICITY, NO INDOOR TOILET, NO TELEPHONE. It was an escape
from facing our sins and we were most miserable. Don’t be fooled by her report
of a nice home and a happy life in the great outdoors. We were broke financially
and I was broken in health. We were most of all very unhappy because the
back to the land dream wasn’t working out. There was no way out, except our
In the late winter of 1980 we received a visit from Jim Green. I was down
with a terrible case of poison oak, all of our cupboards were bare, I had no work
and it was winter. He had been in contact with us thru letters, but it was a
surprise visit. Since he was already a Christian I thought he had just come to
preach at us. But instead he brought us some food, which we needed, and said
very little about the Gospel and didn’t stay long. I was very impressed by his
Christian charity and kindness. During this time another child was born, Lillian
Ruth. Lillian was healed through Jim Green’s prayers from a bad case of
Later that spring Jim and Deborah Green both came up with their children
and I was miraculously set free from demon powers and soundly saved by the
Lord Jesus. So you see, that is the side that you never hear. They helped us
when no one would, they prayed for us when others had lost hope. They helped
us to get our bills paid and encouraged us to get a telephone so we could talk
to them and others. We were coming out of our old lifestyle, exactly how the
Bible tells you to, saying, “put off the former conversation”, meaning, DO
AWAY WITH YOUR OLD LIFE STYLE! We felt so fresh and clean, and there
was no doubt in my mind they were my friends because they cared about our
souls. They told me the truth about myself which no other minister would do.
So we were finally able to leave for Sacramento. We left the rebellion,
the drugs, the empty dream, the filthy lifestyle. You need to know this: it wasn’t
a good life like she made it out to be. We were more than happy to ESCAPE
French Gulch. That’s the truth on how we left. We could not have cared less
about the property, and thru the Green’s advice we were able to sell it all. Now
I see her motive was just to move; my motive was to forsake all and follow Him.
In late summer we moved to Sacramento, California, in FULL
AGREEMENT that if the property sold we would vow all profits to the Lord. The
Lord deserved every bit of it in my view, for it was nothing but a work of rebellion
built on shifting sands, and why should we get anything out of it personally? But
to her it became a bone of contention, and later she was always looking back as
if we had it better. She didn’t have it better because she was most miserable.
We lived like animals and it was our own doing.
The first year in Sacramento we were able to pay all our debts. This was
due in part to the counsel of our overseers Jim and Deborah Green and the fact
that we wanted to obey God. I had my first real job I ever had since I became
a hippie. It had been 10 years. The Lord was very merciful to us in providing
a way of escape and a way to earn an income while we first moved to town. We
started to receive some steady jobs, making sure the bills were paid, being
faithful to the Bible study we had. These were things we just didn’t know how
to do and it was of course due to our own lost lifestyle. The Greens were a very
good example to both of us. They were sacrificial and thrifty with their finances
and we were trying to learn to do the same. It was an uphill battle and they were
most patient and encouraging in helping us both adjust to a steady sane life.
The property sold that first year and we both vowed to give any proceeds
from the sale to the Lord. Later she was to take that vow back and say the
Greens just wanted our property. HOW ABSURD! They led us to the Lord and
salvation and we didn’t have any money then. That lie stems from her undealt-with covetousness. Let me note here that most all hippies coming out of their
lifestyle are very covetous. Why? Because they felt that they lost out on getting
in on the good things that money could buy. Even though we rebelled against
the materialism of the 60's we wanted to make up for lost time. I saw many of
my old friends sell out their ideals for the materialism of the late 70's and early
80's. We were no different and that mentality could not be brought over into the
Christian life. We were doomed to miss the real treasures in Christ if the root
was not cut back.
I can’t state enough how this was one of the prime factors in her phony
lawsuit against me and the rest of the ministry. She was covetous of what
everyone worked hard for and in time she wanted to get at it. Since we all
worked for a living and did not beg donations, we all had to be diligent and hard
working. She, though, was a very lazy person by nature and had to be prodded
along to get busy in her own tasks at home. This was the underlying root that
eventually brought her downfall from grace.
Remembering this fact about her downfall, let me also say that you just
don’t sue those that fed you, nurtured you, got you out of the extreme lifestyle
that you were in; and you don’t sue those who stay in good standing with the
Spirit of the Lord! It just doesn’t work that way. She is reaping what she sowed
(in not dealing with her covetousness)! Whatever happened to being grateful
and thankful to the Lord for sending someone to help you in your time of need?
This she would not do! Instead she wrote out her evil report and gave it to the
ungodly and went out persecuting us with all her might.
I might add she never served God zealously when I knew her. Basically
she was unconverted down in her heart, like many professed Christians of
There were two major attitudes that led to her correction: a lust for
strange flesh, flesh other than her own husband, and an overwhelming desire
to have the material abundance that God poured out to us at Fort Freedom.
In the Fall of 1982, we moved into the new Headquarters of the future
Fort Freedom. Steven was born at this time, and that put us with four Children:
Steven, Lillian Ruth, Nathaniel, and Iantha. One incident that stands out in my
mind was the rebellion that we were both festering in our lives, still lingering from
the past. God dealt with me and I’m forever thankful to Him for exposing my
attitudes and giving me His correction. But as God is correcting you, you have
two choices to make. Go with God, knowing He has the best in mind for you,
or go with your own understanding and ride with yourself. She started to
entertain self-pity and stubbornness towards God. But really God had pulled us
out of a Hell-hole. It just goes to show you how easily you can be deceived by
looking back at the former lifestyle. She wanted to keep the rudiments of the
past lifestyle and serve God too, but you can’t mix the carefree life with the duty
and responsibility for the souls of others. You can’t have both and be a true
She was being a poor example and would not do what she was told to do.
Here is an example of that kind of attitude. Steven, a 1 month old baby, became
seriously constipated and had to have an enema every day. This went on for a
week. Lillian Ruth, a 1 ½ year old was terribly sick and had a high fever that
would not go away. I became very desperate and I cried out to God for mercy.
She would not even offer up a prayer for them. Why all the serious
problems? She would not move with God and was lagging behind, looking back.
She was not a good example to the children. Still, God was merciful to us and
our children, as the Greens prayed for them and they recovered from sickness.
These are no small matters—how our actions or inactions can cause our
children to suffer tremendously. How long would she be so stubborn against the
change for a better life? She needed to come out of the old life of “easy-and-sleazy”. I wanted an upright life with discipline, order and depth. I knew right
then we were parting in our ways. She was holding on to what would sooner or
later kill her spiritually.
In 1984, ‘85, and ‘86, we had a wonderful move of God with many young
people being saved and delivered of demons, taken off drugs and the street life.
Soon our small complex in downtown Sacramento was full. The work and the
burden became international. There were many missionary trips during this time
and much fruit was being reaped. We all had more responsibilities to carry and
could not afford to live in any hidden sins, as its effect is so devastating on any
new converts. God was on the move and He wanted holiness in our camp. In
the Fall of 1986 the Spirit of God finally exposed her and her sins.
We were all in our regular teaching meetings one evening. We were in
praise and worship to God, lifting up our hands to God in thankfulness. Right
after the praise was over God had a Word that someone in the meeting was
lifting up unholy hands. It was a shocker to us all. In the rest of the meeting
God was searching us out ... there was a very uneasy feeling. Later that night
in our house, she admitted to me it was her. She said she had been
masturbating in our bathroom for who knows how long. It was just the tip of the
iceberg as to what she was capable of.
Here is a mother of 5 children, a supposed dedicated Christian,
masturbating to all her sexual fantasies. I told her to confess her sins to our
leaders. The next day she went up to our leaders to tell them about her sin.
Instead of confessing her sins to them she fell down on the floor and began to
crawl like a reptile. It was a demon manifestation of all her sexual perverseness.
Over the years she had demons, no doubt, it was so vile and disgusting.
She was showing her true colors. But God was still very merciful in the situation.
They could of asked me and my family to leave, considering the situation and
our being in close contact with the other members. But God was very merciful
Still the question ... what to do with a continual sex offender? We prayed
and looked to God. Maybe she would repent, maybe there would be a
turnaround in her behavior? In the meantime I was still living with her and it was
very hard on all of us. Her same habits from when I had first met her in 1972
were still doing deadly damage. She did not repent but continued in her old
ways, in more than one way, and was infecting others terribly.
The matter had to be judged since she was not going to listen to me or
our leaders. A meeting was called for the whole body to judge, and we followed
the Biblical command of Jesus in Matthew 18:15-17. In that text Jesus says, “If
your brother wrongs you, go and show him his fault, between you and him
privately. If he listens to you, you have won back your brother.” (The
gender here is referring to both male and female.) This first step was done with
no resulting repentance. Going on in verse 16 it says, “...but if he does not
listen, take along with you one or two others so that every word may be
confirmed and upheld by the testimony of two or three witnesses.” Verse
17 says, “...If he pays no attention to them, refusing to listen and obey, tell
it to the church; and if he refuses to listen even to the church, let him be
to you as a pagan.”
So, this was done and we held that meeting to get her vile things out in
the open. She was put on trial for her sins, so to speak. It went that way
because she would not listen to me nor any of the leaders. She was lewd and
would not come clean. All God really wanted was for her to repent and be
washed—how merciful is our God! But without repentance it was not possible.
At the trial she confessed to plenty of abnormal behaviors but without the sorrow
of her sins. Yes she was caught in her sins but had no remorse, like the whore
who wipes her face and says, “I have done no evil”. I Timothy 5:20 says,
“Them that sin rebuke before all that others also may fear.” It was a timely
judgment, that we all would truly fear and not play such vile games with God.
Hidden sin is so very deadly on fellow believers, it is infectious. One bad apple
can spoil the whole barrel. It’s only common sense.
MS later called her separation from the rest of us “mistreatment”, but at
the time she was not being held against her will. How do you hold someone
against their will without physical restraints? There was no physical violence nor
restraints in our Christian camp.
First Corinthians 5:9-13 states clearly what to do in disciplining a sinning
Christian. “When I wrote to you before I said not to mix with evil people.
But when I said that I wasn’t talking about unbelievers. What I meant was
that you are not to keep company with anyone who claims to be a brother
or sister that indulges in sexual sins, or is greedy, or is a swindler, or
worships idols, or is a drunkard or abusive. Don’t even eat lunch with
such a person.” Verse 12: “It isn’t our job to judge outsiders, but it is
certainly our job to judge and deal strongly with those who are members
of the church who are sinning in these ways. God alone is the Judge of
those on the outside. But you yourselves must deal with this man and put
him out of your church.” How could anyone ignore the instructions given in
these verses when it’s all too clear?
God did judge her for her actions.
But the Generals ended up letting her stay in the Chop Shop, and then,
upon her request, for a short time in the two-story clubhouse, among other
places; but she was not to eat directly with the body because of her sins.
That was the crux of her suit—that she was separated from her family.
She chose to go along with the judgment. She could have left then if she
wanted to. She was not being held against her will. As I stated before that’s
impossible unless there is physical violence involved and there was never any
of that mentioned in her pack of lies. She accepted her judgment for her penalty
of sin. She willingly stayed in the camp but still hung on to her stubborn
willfulness. She is a willful child.
She lived apart from me for several months. Most of the time, she had our
youngest child, Stephen, with her. Our daughter Lillian Ruth chose to remain
with me and her older brother Nathaniel. It was a trying time for all of us. She
was given fair treatment. It was a great shame for all of us concerned. Actually
I felt God was very merciful to both of us considering we should have been
kicked out of the fellowship altogether. But they wanted to see us come thru, for
her to change for the better. But not one time during her last few months at Fort
Freedom did she show that she was truly sorry for all the distress. There was
no real apology with change.
Finally she left, hoping that time might change things and she could find
work somewhere else. Instead, she went straight to the lawyers, the sinners,
and got me in a legal battle over the three young children. We were already
legally divorced and I had been primarily taking care of the children for over 9
months. I could not have done this myself as I received a lot of help from
everyone in the camp. I turned the children over to her instead of fighting it out
in court. I thought it best not to use the children as a go between in such a
The next thing we knew, papers were being served and she was out for
blood! The rest is all history, how we were sued by her “testimony”. NO
WITNESSES, NO PROOF, JUST HEARSAY. We didn’t even show up in court
for various reasons, and we just kept trusting in our God. So, the sinners agreed
with her case full of lies and half-truths. She received a large settlement in court
and we all left at the direction of God who had a much bigger plan in mind.
Everything we had worked for was confiscated. We lost all the houses, property,
businesses ... but God was most merciful to us in preparing a place for us to go
and we are very much the better today for all the persecution we received.
Those that live Godly in Christ Jesus shall suffer persecution. The Bible
is so very true. MS became the Judas, the betrayer. Psalms 41:9 says, “Yea
mine own familiar friend in whom I trusted, which did eat of my bread, hath
lifted up his heel against me.” I myself could not betray the truth and ever
side with her.
She was spiritually and naturally fed by this ministry for years. She was
taught the precepts of the Bible. She knew the truth. There is no excuse for her
actions. It is inevitable that some will turn on the truth, no matter how much you
try to help them. What was so disgusting about the whole affair is she used the
sinners of the legal world to twist the truth of her dirty, filthy sins. We Christians
are not of this world, we are supposed to judge our own, and if there is sin in the
body it must be purged. If not, it will kill the whole body.
Some call us a cult (we are the "Cult of the Living God" though!). Read our literature! It’s basic
Bible teaching and God protects His own. She has continued to spread lies
about us to this day, and God has continued to protect us from the attacks of
misled people. After a full sixteen [now 24] years she is still locked into her bitterness.
That is her cup, that is her payback! Does she have a ministry? No. Does
she have any outreach? No. Does she give out Bibles free of charge? No.
Does she teach the younger women? No. Here is what the Bible says about
aged women: “...that they be in behavior as becometh holiness, not false
accusers.” Did you hear that? NOT FALSE ACCUSERS! "...that they may
teach the young women to be sober, to love their husbands, to love their
children. " Ask her yourself, is she doing any of these commands herself?
She would not obey me, I didn’t hear one word that hinted at the fact that she
was willing to change her ways. No humility at all.
The Amplified version says in Titus 2:3, “...bid the older women to be
reverent and devout in their deportment as becomes those engaged in
sacred service. Not slanderers, to be teachers of what is right and noble.”
How noble is it to continue to spread lies and sue at the law under false
pretenses, to live a bitter life?
And finally, Titus 4:2 says, “Not to slander or abuse, to speak evil of
no one, to avoid being contentious.” She makes this her whole life: her own
testimony is one giant evil report speaking evil of us all.
If you are supporting her way of doing things YOU ARE UNDER A
CURSE! For cursed is the man that relies on the arm of flesh. The tonic for her
poison is to ask her WHAT ABOUT HER OWN SINS!